Sunday, 20 February 2011

Today it stops.

Hello lovelies.

I want to share something with you that I've been thinking about for a while and that sort of came up in another way this evening.

I have a massively unhealthy, obsessive relationship with food.

It pretty much controls everything to do with my life. I'm in a constant state of stressing out about food and restricting my intake or end up completely overeating and binging on utter rubbish. And you know what? I hate that.

A few years ago I read a term that made a lot of sense to me... I don't really fall into having Anorexia or Bulimia by any stretch of the imagination - in fact to most people, I'd seem completely normal. But what I do suffer from is "Disordered Eating" and it utterly controls my life at times.

But what I've decided is that today it stops. Today I am claiming back my body and claiming back my relationship with food - I'm under no illusion that this will be an easy journey, but I don't want to carry on living my life in this way.

My plan is to put together an eating plan for the next week (and the following weeks after that) and I'll be blogging about my experiences on it. I'll be posting it tomorrow (complete with a shopping list) so if you want to join me in reclaiming your body and developing a healthier relationship with food, you're more than welcome to join me. I'll also be posting a few exercises to help us/me reconnect to a healthier way of viewing ourselves and what we eat :)


  1. Well done, you! Good luck :) Last year I had a rather bad relationship with food, but it was more a way of completely filling my mind with things other than my problems. It got to the point where I was eating HALF a cherry tomato a day or nothing at all. I never thought of it as anorexia though, but it was damn hard to get back on track.

  2. Congratulations and good luck! It's a super hard thing to do but in the end it's very worth it! I am on the other side of the spectrum, I love food and have gained too much weight after a few years of not monitoring what I was eating. I too have decided to not let my "food addiction" control my life anymore!

  3. I can completely relate to what your going through. I suffered from (and still do to some extent) disordered eating - its only been since I started to try and focus on health rather than being 'skinny' that I'm starting to win the battle with it and find some kind of balance. After losing almost 6 stone balance is still something I'm working on! Good luck with it all :-)

  4. Lily - Thanks sweetie :) It's so silly that food can end up controlling us so much isn't it? How are you doing these days with food sweetie?

    Kimblery - thank you! Awesome news on making that first step :) I'm all for teaching myself how to love food again but in a sensible and not psycho stressed out way :)

    Laura - I have to say, you're one of my inspirations in reclaiming my body and my relationship with food <3 I want balance and a positive relationship instead of the crazy messed up thing that I have doing on at the moment :) xx

  5. Good luck lovely(:<3, I can totally relate, I think I suffer from that problem too!xx

  6. I'm fine now, luckily :) I started eating properly about a week before I went to Leeds Festival because otherwise I knew I'd be too weak to enjoy it. I realised how crazy it had gotten and how ill I'd made myself. Just a habit you don't want to get into! Once you start getting out of it and food isn't always in your thoughts it gets easier and easier!

  7. I send you my very best wishes in this; I think it's a wonderful plan.

  8. sounds awesome! good luck hun and keep us posted. x


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